I... Done?

I want enjoying my life
Make the best for me
Get the best for my future,
and let me to smile for all my days...

How far I made step
How much I spent my time, my freedom, my money?
Didn't I remember?
I wrote this
not for you or anyone
However, for myself
Just me...
Only me...
To remember what I've done
To remember what I've done yet
To remember everything which is forgotten